You were so tiny and small when you were born
needy and hungry, my skin felt warm
when you lay against my skin and breathed.
But underneath that beautiful skin and those eyes
lay an evil so vile that took me by such surprise
I'd have spared you this evil to you I bequeathed
But I didn't know of my own disease before you came
I would have saved you if I had known the game
The rollercoaster ride of life you'd have to ride.
But I was just starting my own scary ride and had
no idea that you would have your own bad
time that your up and down tide
Would be so forceful, that you wanted to die.
Now, I need to save you and I'm helpless, I cry
Knowing how you feel, I feel it too
But I stay because I have to save you.
I'm afraid for you. Life will be hard, too,
For you and I don't know how to make it easy for you.
I don't know how to save you from your sorrow.
I don't know how to save you from what you borrow
From my genes. That ugly disease that makes you
Wish you'd never been born. That makes you want to die
At such a young age, you feel such deep darkness and lie
In that black hole. I can't save you, but I'll lie there with you,
Like I did when you were born, lying on my skin,
breathing your labored breaths warm, breathe in,
breathe out. I'll always be there with you. I need to save you.
You got this from me, I got this from them but I didn't know
I didn't know. And I'm sorry because it didn't show
Until after you were born. I have to save you.
I'm your mother, you're my baby, you always will be,
I'm sad for you. Life will be hard. And all I see
Is that baby in my arms. I will save you.